I’ve been in a technical phase for the last while. The more deeply I learn, the more prone I am to be incognicant of others, and unable to cultivate deep centreness and presence.
I wonder why. I think what we normally consider balance might be antithetical to deep technical work. When you’re working deeply, you need intense focus, and your brain needs to be immersed in a different world. It’s the opposite of presence.
I don’t know how to deal with this realization. It isn’t worth it to be present if I can’t get what I want, which is deep technical growth. But, deep technical growth isn’t worth being irratable and constantly in a different world.
If you’re somehow reading this, and you have thoughts on this, please send me an email.
For the minute, I continue to ponder the right path.